4

4 Friggen White Hairs that I pulled out. Gosh, there's more that I couldn't see. How depressing. I guess those are the side effects of sleping late + stressing.

Since we are on the theme of 4 , lets do numbers:

1) I was tearing up in Bible Class today. My teachers story was so intense and devestating, unlike my own. My problems seemed like nothing compared to his. Maybe I should be counting my prayers that my life is still okay, even though I want to pull out all my hair and scream out on the top of my lungs. You are strong, I admire that, a lot. I wish I could be like that.

2) You're so complicated. All the drama that I helped you through, and you still treat me the same. Even though you did help me at times, I had to bring it up. You never check on me, I always have to bring the subject of my life up. Common, put in some effort. It seems like we act like we don't know eachother, until one of us needs advice and will try to talk again - that being me. I guess I'm just tired of being initiative, and you not. But what can I do, not much. Its who your personality is, and I can't change that. I tried to, but it never works. Maybe this will work out

3) I didn't go home again.. I don't know what to do

4) I'm too tired to do this today.

I'm so full of emotions. Let me cry myself to sleep. Goodnight

*recap: So I ended up sleeping at like5AM. I stayed up reading, the story was cute :) I'm glad I stayed up. It really felt relacing to just read. I woke up late to my ortho appointment. My mom was supposed to be there with me, incase some papers needed to be signed or whatevers , but she's at work, and my brother probably isn't going to be here, because he is a fuck up. So now I'm sitting here, fustrated as hell. Gah, I know I haven't gone to the ortho in like 2months and well, I don't know what they are going to say. Probably yell at me because I broke a bracket, or two, and haven't worn rubber bands LOL. Man, my life sucks right now. I'm up next to my ortho. I hate waiting too. Unpatient now, thanks to you. I'm tired of waiting for you to come around. I've waiting long enough and I don't know how much longer I can wait. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming,swimming.